Name: (almost) Shimkin Esser
Duration: P00H04M35S
Description: a song about my father, and about how i tried to keep our relationship alive even though he's a garbage abuser.

(almost) Shimkin Esser

by Xena

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a song about my father, and about how i tried to keep our relationship alive even though he's a garbage abuser.

lyrics

There was a man who knew me once when I was all alone
And called me golden apple just to prove that I was wrong
He gave me souvenirs
I hung his pictures on my wall
Imagine how much hurt it caused to hate him after all of that

He hit me in my teeth and made me talk against the wall
I was beauty 5 and he was 55 years old
He was going out and I was playing in my home
And spent my whole life making conversations with the walls

I remember every part of it
I bet he doesn't know
I kept it all inside of me
I bet he doesn't know
I keep on coming back but I don't know why
I kept on coming back but I don't know why
Suffocating in
Unimaginable pain
Don't touch me
I've never been the same

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released December 15, 2021
written & performed by Xena in the open feilds of Kibbutz Usha.

contains a sample of Del mal county fair 2008, written & performed by underscores & Maxwell Young. and a sample of Dad, written by Will Wiesenfeld.

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